I remember feeling extremely stressed out my junior year of high school because I wasn't doing well academically. There was a test coming up, and I felt that if I did not pass this test, I would irrevocably ruin my future. Being that junior year is the most important academic year in high school, I would destroy my changes of getting into a good college, thus ruining my chances of getting a job, thus ruining the rest of my life. I remember that same feeling during city college (I guess I didn't pass that test). I had a variation of that moment before the DTR. But it was more like, I don't want to make the mistake of ruining another person's life if it doesn't work out. On the other hand if I don't do it I may miss out on the opportunity of a life time and then die with regret.
I realized a couple months ago that I'm actually an adult. And time doesn't stop for no body. I been wondering...can one achieve their dreams if they work hard and smart or is it only a myth told by Presidents to motivate children? I'm sure the answer is somewhere in the middle, but I'm asking myself... Can I do it?
As Jagged as said , "We ain't getting younger, we must as well do it." I wonder if pursuing my dreams is just a way of delaying responsibility and reality. I don't want to be the uncle in Napoleon Dynamite who has lost touch with reality. But I don't want to die with regret either... I'm twenty-three now, will I ever live to see twenty-four, The way things is going I don't know. Let me know, do I still got time to grow.
On another note sharing some more video projects...
Jay Rock Nightmare on Elm Street Behind the Scenes from Jason Poon on Vimeo.
