Internship Happenings + hip hop rappers

Well, it's been a grind but very enjoyable. I thank God for all the doors he has opened. I been shooting and editing video. Sometimes with known or lesser known celebrities, but it's definitely a unique experience. Here is something that they just put online.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vcYN8MEiCo

The psychological struggle between feeling satisfied and unsatisfied has been a constant for me. I understand the importance of having a humble attitude of thanksgiving. But at the same time we should also desire more for our life. We should strive for better, and not be complacent in our current situation. So what's next? Happy Easter!

Aspirations + Kid Cudi + Snoop

I feel real tired. And it's not the sleepy or weak tired. But it's the I feel emotionally and psychologically drained tired. And to be honest, I can't put my finger on why. It's about 2:30am, and I just got back from a music video shoot with Snoop and Kid Cudi. How cool is that? Not gonna lie, it's pretty cool. Considering I idolized Kid Cudi last year, and Snoop Dogg is basically the uncle of west coast rap, it's pretty dang cool. I got to shoot some behind the scenes stuff and got to see them just chillin. But why is it that I don't feel the hype? Why is it I feel unsatisfied, anxious, and tired?

Maybe, I need a break. One of my favorite movies of all time is Collateral. In the film Jamie Foxx is a taxi driver, and he gives a ride to the stressed out lawyer played by Jada Pinkett Smith. In one scene Jamie's character tells Jada that she needs a break. He tells her that she is going to go crazy if she doesn't just relax and do nothing. It's hard to ask for a break when you just had a year long break which only ended three weeks ago. I feel guilty just considering it. But maybe I need to take a psychological break. I do feel like my desires or aspiration create certain expectations which I place on myself. And maybe those expectations are just squeezing me dry. I wonder if this the path that God wanted me to take. It seems like He closed certain doors, and He opened this door. I believe in the sovereignty of God, and I would like to think that I have given Jesus Lordship over my life. I don't feel like I am consciously disobeying him or rebelling against his will. But why don't I feel satisfied?

My friend told me I need to have more faith. I think he is right. I do need more faith. And maybe through more faith I will experience more peace. But the journey continues, and the grind doesn't stop. When I step back, I do see the many blessings in my life. That should be enough proof for me to believe that God has a plan for me. I still do believe, but I really want to see how this all pans out. Sorry, no pics on this post. I'll be adding a lot more stuff in the future. Also check out Snoop Dogg featuring Kid Cudi's new track "that tree." It's about remember where you came from, remembering your family.

internship and ness

So I just got an internship this week. It's with this marketing agency called cashmere agency. I start next week, and it feels weird because I won't have the freedom that I have now. I'll be tied to a workday. It's been roller coaster journey but hopefully, this will help me on my next course of life. Also my doppelgänger is Ness! Happy Chinese new year!

The twins - introducing kyler and asher

These two little guys are too awesome. Though they are fraternal twins, they still look very similar. Asher was expected to be the first born, but Kyler somehow snuck out first. Asher means church, and Kyler means blessing. Kyler is the generally more reserved one. He is more contemplative and calculative. Asher is more outgoing, and he gets loud. He likes to point at things and yell out words. They both love running around and screaming. It's great.

It's interesting how people develop. It's even more interesting how people change. What makes people change? What factors attribute to a paradigm shift within someone? How do these things happen? I had several conversations this past week concerning this issue. Specifically, we discussed the idea of how one becomes a Christian... What occurs internally for one to believe? The obvious answer is God/Holy Spirit changes the heart. But my question is what is my role within this process.

New Demo!

Vegas at night.


http://virb.com/jaycemusic/audio/468054

New track is out today! Ryo is actually doing a whole compilation for Vday, and I was asked to be part of the project. I will be submitting at least 2 tracks. But this is a new track. I will post the Vday project when it is released.

I decided to go with a pop sound for this track. A couple of the samples have a pulsating sound. This track is also special because it's my first track where I actually recorded myself on rhythm guitar. I always associated that sound with praise style music, but I was able to work out the sound. Bryce helped me get a rap verse in the middle. It was a lot of fun as usual, and I hope you guys enjoy it.


http://virb.com/jaycemusic/audio/442326

Here is the other track

Twins first time at Snow

Our church went on a field trip to Palm Springs. We went on the Aerial Tramway to the mountains to see the snow. It was the first time the boys experienced snow.



Group picture with part of the church.