Maybe I'm dramatic and I bring it upon myself, but does it feel like life is a series of critical moments and decisions?
I remember feeling extremely stressed out my junior year of high school because I wasn't doing well academically. There was a test coming up, and I felt that if I did not pass this test, I would irrevocably ruin my future. Being that junior year is the most important academic year in high school, I would destroy my changes of getting into a good college, thus ruining my chances of getting a job, thus ruining the rest of my life. I remember that same feeling during city college (I guess I didn't pass that test). I had a variation of that moment before the DTR. But it was more like, I don't want to make the mistake of ruining another person's life if it doesn't work out. On the other hand if I don't do it I may miss out on the opportunity of a life time and then die with regret.
I realized a couple months ago that I'm actually an adult. And time doesn't stop for no body. I been wondering...can one achieve their dreams if they work hard and smart or is it only a myth told by Presidents to motivate children? I'm sure the answer is somewhere in the middle, but I'm asking myself... Can I do it?
As Jagged as said , "We ain't getting younger, we must as well do it." I wonder if pursuing my dreams is just a way of delaying responsibility and reality. I don't want to be the uncle in Napoleon Dynamite who has lost touch with reality. But I don't want to die with regret either... I'm twenty-three now, will I ever live to see twenty-four, The way things is going I don't know. Let me know, do I still got time to grow.
On another note sharing some more video projects...
I been in Southern California for 5 years now. It's really unbelieveable when I think about it. Times passes by so quickly. Things change and rearrange, friends aren't friends anymore, people go behind your back. I have come to appreciate the many elements of socal. Don't get me wrong, I still hate the traffic, but there are many pluses too.
Lisa and Alice are both locals to socal, and they have found that treating yourself as a tourist in your hometown can be very enriching. We miss the beauty in the things around us when we forget to slow down and "smell the flowers." This is their satisfied story.
Xzibit just released a new single Phenom on itunes along with his music video (plug plug), and I was able to go to the release party in Hollywood. Here's a video I put together for the event.
If someone were to predict my future 8 years ago and tell me what I did, I wouldn't believe it. Coming from my Southern Baptist, Chinese, conservative background I didn't expect this to happen. I don't work with Christians. I haven't been trained in how to operate in this environment. Ironically, these people who seem so different than me are probably very much the same. At the core of us all, aren't we all beings trying to find out "why"?
The more I get to know my co workers I realize how little I understand about life. Some of my co-workers have so much knowledge and experience. Yet I feel I have been placed here for a reason. I mean beyond doing my job as a employee, I feel like God desires to see the restoration of humanity closer to its intended image. But how do I do that? I really feel blessed I am here. And I hope I can really add to the kingdom.
Cliff is pretty good at telling stories. He's pretty articulate and blogs well. He also has an appreciation for rap. I once asked him who his favorite rapper was and without hesitation he said Eminem. Thank God he didn't say soulja boy. There are these moments in rap songs that are so intense it just hits you in the gut. And I remember we shared about those moments and how they are almost even spiritual. Anyways, this is Cliff's story for satisfied.
My home church, Laguna Chinese Baptist Church (originally called Sacramento Chinese Baptist Church, was actually a church plant by a church from Los Angeles. Growing up I always wanted to visit the "mother" church. And when I moved to Long Beach for school I met many people who went to First Chinese Baptist Church in LA. Come Passion's first event met at FCBC LA. And here is the story that Youth Pastor John Ng shared.
